“Don’t you worry, as long as you bring her up well, she’ll be fine, successful woman. Believe me.” she said to them.

The atmosphere was solemn, there was not a single happiness in the atmosphere. Sounds of sobbing filled the room. Naturally, my neck felt swollen and weighed a million; my eyes, they felt watery; my heart, there was no more support to hold it in place and everything in my world seemed to have tumbled down. However, despite the excruciating pain I was feeling. I never teared.

She was someone very important, very dear to me. She has been the pillar of support of our big family since grandfather left. She is my grandmother, she bonds the family together and she never fails to share her love among all of us, no matter how old or how young. However, being barely thirteen years old then and being the favourite one, her death was the greatest thing that could of happen to me.

Currently, sixteen years old, although I still live life with influence of her death but I treat it as my motivation. At times, I think she is guarding my family and I from above. Many times, my family was meeting our ends due to some stupid mistakes done. However, with no fail, we have been given help from relatives and some old friends of my parents. It is very miraculous.

However, this you will never guess. Although she specially favored me, I only treasured everything that she has done after her death. I remembered spending every single night crying to sleep just because I felt guilty not saying “I love you” to her when she was still beside me; wasting every single day crying just because I never hugged her once and always rejected the offers. Also every night, I could not swallow my dinner decause I felt guilty scolding her for cooking those vegetables I disliked when in the whole, her cooking was the best in the world. Although I seemed like a heatless girl in front of my family, I spent every single minute of my life feeling guilty. Even till now.

Although she is not with me now, but I know she is deside me. So, I never fail to say “I love you” to her before going to bed every night now; I never fail to hug the bear she gave me on my nine year old birthday every night. In addition, those vegetables she always said were good for my health are now my favorite. To me, all of these has significance to me.

The words she said will forever be etched in my heart and printed in my mind. I will be a successful woman and not let her down. I will also share the love she gave me every one.

“We can do great deeds, but only small deeds with great love.” – My grandmother, she is the most suitable for this quotation by Mother Teresa.

I love you.