This world is temporary. This life that lives is gentle and it can end anytime it wants. In a blink of an eye, you can see people catching their last breather to live and another blink lives gone eternally just like that.

The last time I saw here, she was eating delightedly, enjoying the night feast at my uncle’s wedding which was held three weeks ago.

Yesterday, was the day she left me. I could not see her breathing anymore but I can still feel that her heart was still beating inside me.

The face of fright, I could see that she was at the climax of surviving and live on or sleep peacefully.

Gasping for breathe like a fish on land without water. They were so cold, the hands was shivering, the body was moving up and down as she was lying down on the bed.

I hardly to see her eyes opening.

11.27 pm, the line went straight, she is leaving to another world.

Tears trickled down my cheeks. I was speechless and could do nothing but just sitting on the stairs and gazing to the sky.

I’d thought I saw her face smiling at me in the sky.

I still remembered her feeding me with spices and rice. Her hands were soft and fuss as it touches my lips, there goes the food into my stomach.

She was the one who taught me to take spicy food. Ever since then, eating spicy food was the most pleasant moment for me.

She will keep her sambal belacan for me in a container and everyday that sambal will slowly disappear bit by bit.

I still remember, when the first time I saw her eating rice with the sambal belacan, I thought it was spicy that I do not dare to taste it. But after a two spoonful fed by her I enjoyed it as it was not hot but sweet instead.

At that moment, she was the most chatty and active person at home. After three years of that, she suffered a colon tumor and had to undergo a surgery which happened during the SARS outbreak.

At that point of time, I thought it will be the last time seeing her but she made it and survived. Since the recovery of the operation, she still actively moves about but after she started using a four wheel her health became deteriorate.

Now I can only wondering what she is doing up there. Dear great grandmother, how are you doing up there? I miss you!

Life is so precious, therefore, cherish it while we can. Do treasure every moment with the one that we love and care so much.