Dear Grandma,

Heaven is a place for angels like you. There’s nothing I can feel now because I can’t find my emotions. I suppose you are watching over me now, aren’t you Grandma?

If you can see me clearly, I am sorry to let you see my welled-up eyes after crying. For the first time, I want to talk to you again. Just when I reassured myself that everything was all going to be better, things turn out for the worse. I try so hard to be strong, to avoid mum seeing me shed so many tears because I have to be her pillar of strength. It’s not easy Grandma, I’m terribly missing you.

I feel melancholic, because whenever I used to arrive home, you would kiss me and hug me, but this time you left me without a word, I can neither see you, nor hear your voice. I am sure that you are in the Heaven now because you are so virtuous. However, God was never fair, letting the illness inflict you and drain your youth away.

I remember, when I was young, we would climb the mountain with our class. When we arrived at the top, our teacher would tell us make a vow. Most of us made the vow for themselves, but I was the exception that stood before the statues of the gods in the mountains and prayed for you to regain your health. Those twenty six gruelling years were a challenge. Every now and then, you had to be rushed to hospital. It must have been really painful to bear. Nevertheless, you were a fighter and you never gave up on the battle. I am grateful that now, you’re free from the pain, I can’t help but reminisce on the times we spent together.

I miss you, Grandma. I remember when Grandpa used to push you on the wheelchair while strolling in the garden. You were so happy to see the trees and listen the bird singing and told Grandpa you missed me. Grandma, I love you. Please visit me in my dreams? I wish I had the answers to all my questions, or my request to see you for the last time. I know you’re there when I’m lonely. You will stay in my heart forever.
Grandma, I miss you and I love you very, very much…

Yours truly,
Xiyu